5
this is how many days i have gone without a smoke. i wish i could have started on 1. then you would have really seen what it is like to battle such a bad addiction. for those of you out there who have never smoked-bravo! for those out there that are still battling to quit, or for those who even enjoy it, i have officially turned in my smoker's club i.d. card.
when i was on vacation in ghana, i realized that i was battling an addiction. nothing less than pure, unadulterated addiction. for the past * years (i don't want to divulge how long i have been smoking because it's so gross to think about) i was deluded to think it was something that i enjoyed, something that relaxed me, something that complimented coffee and beer quite finely. for all of this time i have been in denial about what it really was that i held in my hand.
this realization has marked a sea-change in the way that i approach quitting smoking now. it probably has been the biggest mental block for me to hurdle, this notion of addiction. what?!? me? addicted...no!! can't be! but alas, 'tis true. and now with this ephiphany, i bring it to you the public, my readers, to openly admit to my addiction to all the world.
hello, i am chance, and i am addicted to cigarettes. if i don't beat this addiction now, it will kill me. i am sick of stinking. i am sick of wanting to quit smoking for what seems like forever, and never succeeding. i am sick of stained teeth, lack of energy, and grumpiness when i can't smoke. i am also sick of people looking at me in disgusted ways whenever i light up (which happened quite often in ghana, believe it or not...).
yeah, so, if you can throw some thoughts out into the universe in support of me licking this addiction in the bud, me and my lungs would be eternally grateful.
peace. chance.
ps. next time i post will be about my trip to ghana and the return of the read-what-i-have-read-book-list!!! i just needed to share about what is currently happening to me right now at this moment.
ps2. if you like good music and you haven't already purchased or burned or downloaded the latest built to spill: you in reverse, you really hate music. at least i have a reason to not be up on the latest and greatest music-I LIVE IN AFRICA!
when i was on vacation in ghana, i realized that i was battling an addiction. nothing less than pure, unadulterated addiction. for the past * years (i don't want to divulge how long i have been smoking because it's so gross to think about) i was deluded to think it was something that i enjoyed, something that relaxed me, something that complimented coffee and beer quite finely. for all of this time i have been in denial about what it really was that i held in my hand.
this realization has marked a sea-change in the way that i approach quitting smoking now. it probably has been the biggest mental block for me to hurdle, this notion of addiction. what?!? me? addicted...no!! can't be! but alas, 'tis true. and now with this ephiphany, i bring it to you the public, my readers, to openly admit to my addiction to all the world.
hello, i am chance, and i am addicted to cigarettes. if i don't beat this addiction now, it will kill me. i am sick of stinking. i am sick of wanting to quit smoking for what seems like forever, and never succeeding. i am sick of stained teeth, lack of energy, and grumpiness when i can't smoke. i am also sick of people looking at me in disgusted ways whenever i light up (which happened quite often in ghana, believe it or not...).
yeah, so, if you can throw some thoughts out into the universe in support of me licking this addiction in the bud, me and my lungs would be eternally grateful.
peace. chance.
ps. next time i post will be about my trip to ghana and the return of the read-what-i-have-read-book-list!!! i just needed to share about what is currently happening to me right now at this moment.
ps2. if you like good music and you haven't already purchased or burned or downloaded the latest built to spill: you in reverse, you really hate music. at least i have a reason to not be up on the latest and greatest music-I LIVE IN AFRICA!
posted by chance @ 5:15 PM
1 Comments:
At 3:59 PM,
rkxann said…
day number forty seven now and still kicking; good job girlie! wrastle it all, you shall succeed. and, through such, inspire.
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